I was so proud of Sylvie when she became an Australian Citizen at the citizenship ceremony because she did something that made her happy. She did it with conviction even tough I had expressed I saw no major value in it.
Once I declined to the $156,000 job interview at the DTO through the recruitment agent and was honest I had taken on too much, I felt like I was on the right path again. The following morning I began to enjoy life again. I noticed how one-dimensional life had been, like being stuck in a box, a pressure chamber void of things that stimulated my senses. I had neglected object meditation and this diary as a usual symptom of pursuing too much and pursuing employment. By saying no to the employment I could also see how I had let others drain my energy and focus and let myself get stressed and make bad decisions. I regained clarity then to run the project my way and not be dependent on talent, which meant training up a kindergarten teacher in Children's Philosophy through UNSW as a minimum backup.
When HR at the casino refused Sylvie to reduce her week to be the same as mine, she opted out of being involved in the project. It was a relief that she pulled out because I could now move the project forward at my pace and in my own way, and learn from it thanks to seeing what's involved. It does mean I slow down through multitasking and too much again is on my shoulders. I am the bottle-neck. But I would rather be prepared before inviting people, to give a clear brief to clarify their starting point. It would be different if they were involved from the start like in a traditional Design Thinking project.
I realised as I investigated having a Self Managed Super Fund how I started to become independent of Sydney and Australia, to begin making my own way.
- Employment, high salaries and its structures make you dependent on living in an expensive city that's hard to get out of .
- When you employ, partner with or make yourself dependent on people, you lose clarity of the project. Using trust in and respect for the person, you trade that clarity & control for being surprised. But if they don't deliver, then it's just bad surprises and you end up doing their work.
- In business, if you say you do something, you must do that one thing or it causes chaos, beginning with project creep and loss of people's trust in you and loss of motivation.